Dopamine Darling Help Hand Drowning

Jan. 24th 2019: I’m in a Blind Panic Right Now

I’ve tried to write this post about 4 times over the past 5 hours, but I’m in such a dizzying panic all of my thoughts are disjointed, and I can’t express what I’m trying to say. I wanted to cancel my therapy appointment today because I have been extra sensitive […]Read more »

Dopamine Darling Clocks Obsession Repetition

Feeling Frozen, Odd Behavior, and Accountability Ideas?

This is something I was talking about with my therapist at our last appointment; I have been having a major issue with motivation. I have surpassed the “just get off your ass, you lazy bum” kind of lack of motivation, I literally feel frozen, like I can’t move or function. […]Read more »

Dopamine Darling Writing Learn From The Past

Rehab Worksheet & Reflection: If I Healed

This is a worksheet I did early into being in rehab; I hadn’t really spent too much time on self-reflection or digging into my character defects. This was fresh, and even these little things were hard to admit to myself, but looking back they look like such small problems in […]Read more »

Dopamine Darling Scale and Measuring Tape

Don’t Be the Victim of a Resolution

CW: I want everyone to be able to read this post, so I chopped the sensitive content and put it at the end so you can just avoid it. I mention exact numbers and share one of the most heartbreaking parts of this disease, it’s not necessarily triggering, but it […]Read more »

Dopamine Darling I Think I Lost My Virginity For The Third Time

Sobriety, Sex & Sexuality

Yep, we’re going there. This post probably will make you uncomfortable, but since so few people want to talk about this, I’ll do it. Let’s get a few things out of the way before we start: Content Warning: There is a brief reference to sexual trauma/assault. Cringe Warning: I talk […]Read more »

Dopamine Darling Website Icon Green

I Turned My Nervous Breakdown Into a Website

Hello world, You can call me Darling, and as the post title suggests I turned my nervous breakdown into a website. Why on earth would I do something like that? Aren’t I supposed to hide the ugly side of myself and pretend that never happened? To be socially acceptable, yes, […]Read more »

Dopamine Darling Cozy Journal Slippers

Dec. 27th 2018: Fear of Relapse and Triggering Locations

For the time being; I’m alright. I’m not sure how long that will last though. Tomorrow I’m going to be in a similar position and in the same place that triggered my last relapse. I will be alone. I don’t have any friends who would essentially chaperone me (I don’t […]Read more »

Dopamine Darling Website Icon Green

Status Update: Dec 17th 2018

The weirdest part about not drinking is realizing you have no idea what some drinks taste like without alcohol. I just took a sip of hot cocoa and wondered why it tasted weird. … it was because there was no bourbon in it 🤦🏼‍♀️ A+

Dopamine Darling Website Icon Green

Regression, Depression, and Denial

I can’t handle any of this; I just want to be numb. It’s in everyone’s best interest that I go back to my old ways, all this new shit has done nothing but hurt me and I’ll never get what I wanted out of it. Don’t even bother calling it […]Read more »